Went outside and meditated. Hummingbird hung out in the air in front of my for quite a time. I need to go spend time with my mandala which I’ll do, but… today is the day that I get my blood drawn. I was going to wake up early to go to Esteban’s hypnosis talk but I woke up too late to get that and my blood drawn and the blood draw is really important and I can’t do it tomorrow. So… I have and abundance of high paying return clients. I have an abundance of high paying return clients. I have an abundance of high paying return clients. I have an abundance of high paying return clients. I have an abundance of return high paying clients. I have an abundance of return high paying clients. I have an abundance of return high paying clients. I have an abundance of return high paying clients. I have an abundance of return high paying clients. I have an abundance of return high paying clients. I have an abundance of return high paying clients. My business is thriving. I’ve released my book and it’s doing exceptionally well. My classes are full and I really enjoy teaching and bringing techniques of mastery to people. My own spiritual awakening is allowing me to astral project when I need to for clients. I own ability to pierce the veil is extraordinary. I feel great!

This is what I’m thinking about this morning as I make the drink. I’m two days away from my third 3-week regimen. I’m very excited to see awesome results in my labs. I’ll look at the schedule but I probably don’t need to wait until Thursday to actually do the labs. On another note, I released the web site and announced the new Facebook page at about 2:30 this morning. I was hoping to see gaggle of emails this morning asking me for free sessions but I’m willing to wait until noon today! I really need to get some free sessions out there. I thought by now that I’d have some inquiries but it seems to be taking its sweet time. I probably need to hit Yelp as well. It also makes me think of why Dorthy hasn’t gotten back to me about working on her web site. I sent her a text message and then I sent her an email and she hasn’t responded to either. I know she’s busy. She’s such an awesome woman. It might be my imagination but I wonder who’s going to take over that school when she’s ready to give it up. I wonder what’s going to happen to our drum when they’re ready to give it up. I wonder, I wonder… I woke up with morning thinking about all the things I need to do to my web site. I definitely need to fix the layout issue with mobile. That’s a priority. The site is really plain. I didn’t do any bell and whistles on the site because I wanted it to feel incredibly clean. I like Peleg Top’s site so much and how clean it is. I wonder if I’ve done enough. I sure would like someone to read my copy and tell me what they think about it. I’m really hoping that I’ll get some feedback on it. It was interesting talking to Teri yesterday. I’m glad that the session went so well with her. I hope it makes a big difference in her life. I just wonder where the whole Moxie thing is going. It seems to have great potential. I’d like to have that environment and busy opportunity here around home. I really don’t like that fucked up drive over there so it doesn’t make me want to do that more than one day a week. I love the Monday night gig. I don’t want to give that up by any stretch of the imagination. I wonder when I’m going to figure out how to write something that seems worthy enough of a Facebook post. I’d like to develop some skill or strategy for posting to Facebook. I’m not really crazy about that whole thing and I go back and forth, but I really need to do more writing for my web site. I need to look up Dragon Dictate. Hell, I think I’ll do that right now. I’m also noticing that the work count doesn’t update all that much.

I’m reading Dion Fortune right now and having this issue with Nelson. It seems like he wants a different practitioner, one who “sees” the beings he’s experiencing. We did one really long session and maybe he wants someone more powerful. After reading Dion Fortune, it sounds like there are people who can move in and out of the astral realm. I don’t know why I have so much trouble with it. I also wonder if I can actually be good at this kind of work if I can’t “see.” Dammit. I’ve tried so hard to do this work from a place of love and light. Maybe the two don’t mix. I think back to those that say that the astral realm isn’t someplace you should stop in and hang out, that you should move further into the mental and causal realms. I don’t even know if I do that. I do something. I just don’t “see.” I wanted to help Nelson in the same way that I want to help David Neuman. I did that soul retrieval for him but I don’t know that it helped him. I don’t know what it’s like to have a being constantly pestering you. At least I don’t think so. Maybe I do. Maybe that’s what’s going on with my sexuality. I wish that my spirit guides would help me to understand and figure this stuff out. It’s really getting to me. If I’m going to be shamanic practitioner, I need to improve my game in some way. Oh, all of this just seems so damned complicated. I need to connect with Therelin. I’m not convinced that I need to do automatic writing with a pen. It’s just too slow. Automatic typing. That’s where it’s at. If Nelson can do this, what makes him different than me? Is it true that I am not that sensitive because it gives me the ability to work with people like Nelson? Is my protection enough to keep me safe? I think so. Please Therelin, tell me how to proceed. Fucking leaf blowers. Ok, they’re done. I just tried to meditate. I realized that I’m very irritated now that I can’t get my mind to shut the fuck up, I can’t astral project, and I’m not getting anywhere in meditation… and here I am trying to reposition myself as a coach and I’m feeling pretty whack. Ugh. I hope this passes soon. I think I’m really tired too.

I’m even willing to start without a title. I called Don and after thinking that he wasn’t receiving my emails, it turns out that he was. He just wasn’t responding. Anyhow, we have our third with Gail. We’ll see how that goes. I hope it’s better and not worse ‘cos I find working with Gail valuable, even more so than Don I think. He’s a funny bird but a nice one. I got some stuff up on my web site but I really need to crunch on content. I probably need to contact Therelin and Jerome at the same time and see if they’ll help me. When it comes down to content, it must come from knowledge. I realize that I don’t have a lot of experience in Career coaching or health and wellness coaching so I’m not sure what to say. That gets a little weird. I think I need to start reading in those areas to get a hold of what I’m supposed to do with this business. So much of people’s stuff is the inner game and not the outer game. They know what to do. The info’s out there. They just don’t do it. That’s what I need to address. SO this is going to be part of my schpeal. This is good and it’s really how I want to work. There’s probably more but what is it? I was so rudely interrupted by my bowels when I was starting to get on a roll. And… there’s more work to do promoting my class. I’m stoked that my talk is 4 days before the class. Yay!! Gosh I need to write today. I’m not going to stay and breakfast with my friends all day. I’m going to promote my stuff at CCL today. I need to tell Corky about my stuff. I’m going to do that now.

I see this in my email. I almost forgot that I agreed to write for 5 minutes every day. I wrote my dream down which was interesting. I can’t recall dreaming about Jerry before. I wonder if he’s online, nope, not online… probably sleeping. I just can’t believe how the Aquarians are so co-dependent. He told me that David has homework to do today so that means that Jerry has to stay home? WTF? I don’t get it. It’s pathological. I want to wring his neck. It’s makes me rather crazy. Just because he’s going to be gone for a week, he has to sit around his apartment to make David feel good about taking one fucking class and having the summer off of work, while Jerry pays for most of the bills. This is insanity! I don’t understand how people come up with their value system. At what point do two make one? And why? These are men too for gawdsake. Maybe it’s a woman thing. Doti told me that she’s never slept alone. Corky likes being alone. They’re so very different. I guess neither is right. David is just so damned spoiled I can’t believe it. A grown man who can’t do his own laundry or clean the house, nor take care of himself. Jerry has to clean up after him, pay his bills. And told me that he’d probably just go back and live with his mother if they ever split up. I think it’s the Aquarian Jerry that’s the problem. He’s probably just like Mel and Kirby with their need for attachment and challenge of doing things with someone else. Although, Jerry does do lots of art and bonzai. I dunno. I think he’s always been in relationships too. I don’t think he can actually stand being alone, even to the point of being in dysfunctional relationships. That’s probably the truth of the matter. And who am I to even talk about it? I’ve been in chronic relationships as well and they’ve been pretty crazy, I think. Maybe not. My relationships were pretty good actually. Well, Kirby and I were kind of a mess I guess.

Ok, this is my first 5 minute writing project given by Nicola. It was really cool of her to send me an email to follow up with yesterday’s coaching session… which btw was really fun. I seem to have a really good team and synergy with Grant and Nicola and am happy that I was thrown into that team. When I’m working with Grant, I feel dead on with how I’m coaching him. Sometimes I’m not sure if he’s getting as much benefit from it and I wonder how my coaching compares with that of the coach that he actually hired. Nicola is really cool and she’s doing some of the stuff that I’ve had a challenge with around my marketing crap. I’m eager to hear what she thinks of my Thumbtack messaging.

I’m really needing to get off my ass and make some money super soon. I just saw my credit card bill of $1400 and I’m pretty freaked out about where that money’s going to come from. I think that getting people signed up for my class is really important but getting clients into coaching would be great too. If I could sign two people up this month for 6 month coaching at $2800 a piece, that would do it. That’s my goal actually, I’ve just decided. I’m going to sign two people up for 6 month coaching at $2800 apiece. I’ll work on the Facebook marketing message. Maybe I need to do a webinar, I’m not sure. Maybe I just need to get people in with free sessions that sell. That and Thumbtack are low hanging fruit and that’s definitely what I need. I’m not sure what to do with the healing business. People come to me because something is broken in their lives, either mentally, emotionally, or physically, or a combination of the 3. I’m able to help those people, but those people may not necessarily be looking to change their career. I love meditation and that’s what my class is about. I need to structure the class so that I’m doing a lot of shamanic journeying nights, and a lot of meditation nights. How much would someone pay to have a small and intimate group to do meditation and journeying with? I’m already doing a free thing with Enchantations. I haven’t really gotten clients out of that, but I have started making a name for myself. I could offer a FSTS thing there, but career seems silly. Maybe I do the career thing on Thumbtack, start a new Facebook group for just career coaching, and something else… It seems like I could be doing multiple things in different locations. What would I do with Yelp? Right now, people are having a hard time finding me on Yelp, and maybe I need to only use hypnotherapy as a tool for coaching? It could be a tool for health and wellness coaching. Stop trying to be a healer and be a health and wellness coach. Discover what’s stopping you from being healthy, energized, clear headed, motivated, and lethargic. Change the way you eat, sleep, and think by working alongside someone who cares about your progress and guides you to victory over feeling exhausted and stressed out. Health, Wellness and Weight Mastery Coaching session. Ok, that feels good.