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I see this in my email. I almost forgot that I agreed to write for 5 minutes every day. I wrote my dream down which was interesting. I can’t recall dreaming about Jerry before. I wonder if he’s online, nope, not online… probably sleeping. I just can’t believe how the Aquarians are so co-dependent. He told me that David has homework to do today so that means that Jerry has to stay home? WTF? I don’t get it. It’s pathological. I want to wring his neck. It’s makes me rather crazy. Just because he’s going to be gone for a week, he has to sit around his apartment to make David feel good about taking one fucking class and having the summer off of work, while Jerry pays for most of the bills. This is insanity! I don’t understand how people come up with their value system. At what point do two make one? And why? These are men too for gawdsake. Maybe it’s a woman thing. Doti told me that she’s never slept alone. Corky likes being alone. They’re so very different. I guess neither is right. David is just so damned spoiled I can’t believe it. A grown man who can’t do his own laundry or clean the house, nor take care of himself. Jerry has to clean up after him, pay his bills. And told me that he’d probably just go back and live with his mother if they ever split up. I think it’s the Aquarian Jerry that’s the problem. He’s probably just like Mel and Kirby with their need for attachment and challenge of doing things with someone else. Although, Jerry does do lots of art and bonzai. I dunno. I think he’s always been in relationships too. I don’t think he can actually stand being alone, even to the point of being in dysfunctional relationships. That’s probably the truth of the matter. And who am I to even talk about it? I’ve been in chronic relationships as well and they’ve been pretty crazy, I think. Maybe not. My relationships were pretty good actually. Well, Kirby and I were kind of a mess I guess.

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