I’m with an asian woman out in the countryside. It’s a beautiful day. We witness a chase between a black helicopter like craft that’s being chased by three smaller crafts. They make some pretty impressive maneuvers in the sky and then on of the smaller crafts collides with the helicopter and brings it down. They’re after a person in the helicopter and they take that person. It’s like an X-men thing. I’m suddenly engaged inside and outside (3rd person) with a black stealth craft with 5 people on board in suits and it’s taking off from a port very high up a tall, craggy mountain, I think with a prisoner, or they were rescued.
Red JeepOctober 3rd, 2016
I’m in an office with some people. Something is going on and it’s shaking people up but I’m not really fazed by it. I’m more interested in speaking with Tim C. I find him and have a conversation with him.
I’m with a group of women and they’re getting ready to share a chicken song from a N.A. man named something.. Pit Bull. I thought it was an odd name for a man to be named after a breed of dog. I asked if I could record the song and they said yes but by the time they started singing I realized that I already knew the song.
I’m on the street, possibly in a gas station. I watch this bright red jeep pull into nearby driveway and jump up in the air and land but disappear rather than crash. I’m astounded and go over to investigate and find that when the jeep hit the ground, it perfectly parked itself in an automotive garage. I’m with one of the women from the song group and we went and investigated the jeep. The suspension had been completely rebuilt and was impressive. The only thing I find strange is that rather than have 4x tires on the front, they’re rugged street tires. Finally, the woman who owns the jeep come out. She’s really young, around 20, blonde and small framed. She brings me inside the jeep and shows me all the electronics and radios she has while she tells me about putting the jeep together. I notice that there’s a trickle of smoke and a small fire inside one of the components. Not good. She pushes some button and dislodges a black ooze that puts out the fire but also seems to disable the equipment.
MesasOctober 2nd, 2016
I’m in the yurt where I’ve finished my initiation and completion of my mesa with Jose Luiz Herrera. It’s light and I get this overwhelming sense that in the group of people I’ve been initiated with, two mesas are all masculine and not balanced with the feminine. I tell Jose Luiz and he tells me not to worry about it because he has an apprentice who’ll take care of it. I tell him ok but secretly I’m still really obsessed with how to fix the problem and actually go in and out of the dream trying to figure out the remedy to the problem. One of the mesas is being addressed by the apprentice and I get a message about the other one as follows: It’s hiding in the silent labyrinth.
I relay this dream to Lorraine who tells me that 7 layers underneath Lake Titicaca is the daughter of the sun and moon. She’s hiding in a labyrinth from the Conquistadors. She’s one of the 7 Nunes or Goddesses of that tradition. Interesting…
Breast MilkSeptember 27th, 2016
I’m working in an office and I need to go to the bathroom. I walk thru the bathroom door but realize that I forgot that they’d converted the bathroom into another group of offices. I walk into the middle of the room and end up calling Greg on the phone and I’m talking to him about donations of breast milk if someone’s lactating to donate it to other women who are having trouble lactating for their newborns. As I’m having this conversation, I notice that Dave B. is there. He’s brought a birthday cake for one of the women in the office as a surprise. A few people gather around and start singing happy birthday to her. I can’t get the idea of getting breast milk donated out of my mind. When I wake up, it’s still very important as I’m laying there.
Not What I Wanna DoAugust 30th, 2016
I just got that title from the fact that I don’t want to do career coaching. When I look at what people are wanting, I don’t mind doing that but I don’t want to think I need to build up a skill set specific to that. It’s not what I wanna do.I’m asking spirit to come thru now and help me clarify what I wanna dooo now. Please come, Therelin and any other spirits who are as great as self or greater and want to help me with my vision and what to do on planet earth now.
Help people get to their soul’s essense. Find the essense that they’re vibrating at at the soul level b that’s been hidden by being human. Help remove and transform limiting bliefs and unfulfilled emotional states that are hiding that esssense so that people can live by it.
How do I do that?
Get it out of the way.
I need to speak about peace and calm. I’m trying to open up to information coming thru. I’ve never been able to hear spirit speak directly to me and I’d really like that to happen, to channel clearly. Spirit, can I please make that happen? What do I need to do? I really want to do that. Let’s make the channel clearer. Maybe I need to try automatic writing instead of automatic typing.
The Whole Christian Mickelsen ThingAugust 22nd, 2016
I’m having a bit of challenge around deciding whether to ask for my money back. There are some things that have been useful like the structure around your first session with a client (FSTS) and the Rapid Coaching System (RCS). I’ve have used the FSTS format partially for my first conversation with a client, but 90% have been clients that were already going to hire me. I wasn’t doing a free session offer. The one person that I did the free session offer for didn’t take my services, she chose someone else. The RCS has been used a couple of time, but really I haven’t needed to because I already know what to do with my clients when they come to me for healing. I’m mostly work on the inner psychology and blockages which is why they came to me in the first place. I didn’t get any value out of the Client Attraction and Money Making Mastery (CAMMM) because I still don’t have a flood of clients coming in even though I’ve read about and implemented those tools before I even went thru the CAMMM system. I find Christian to be somewhat disingenuous tho I can’t put my finger on why. Well, it may be partly that he had three different opportunities to use his miracle stuff on me, and I believe he chose not to because he wanted me to pay for and come to the Instant Miracle Mastery (IMM) program. He even told me that while I was at IMX after he muscle tested me and found that he might be able to help me with my HIV. If it were me, I would’ve jumped at the chance to help someone cure a disease, not ask for money around it. I guess I’m kind of answering myself. The program hasn’t worked for me. What has were the two coaching trios. My first coaching with Christian’s group was horrible. She basically told me that she’d help me if I signed up for a coaching program. That was lame, especially since I told her about the specific thing I wanted help with. The second session was with Carla. She was much better and went over for me, but I still didn’t get anything out of the session. I took a few notes from that session that I need to go over. Here they are:
• I need to be able to generate more leads online.
• Narrowing my niche has been really challenging. Os to stress management?
• My self confidence gets in the way. I come off as confident and assured but I’m so tired of it bouncing around back and forth, especially with clients that I sometimes can help and other times I can’t. I’m starting to feel like this whole shamanic path doesn’t really work. The spirits aren’t really listening. We’ve created a grand delusion. Even tho I’ve seen the evidence to the contrary. Sometimes I’m successful and sometimes I’m not. I can’t build a thriving practice if I have such a low success rate. Although doctors don’t necessarily have a high success rate with cancer. FUCK
• I really, at my core, love the study of the occult, the unseen, consciousness. I love helping people going really deep with this stuff.
• I’m not getting people to come in for FREE sessions.
How stressed are you today?
Ask people/invite them phrasing in the right way. They get a lot out of your fsts.
Blind leads are $297 for the session.
Other FB groups. Paying attention to who needs your skills and talking to them.
Instagram page for stress management + ads.
Speak to HR about employee productivity and stress reduction. I offer both.
Lunch & learns. Ask if they’d done meditation classes.
Google the industry standards.
Class: teach different styles of meditation like LSL.
Addicted to ibuprofen, drinking. Why they’re doing what they’re doing to cope.
What is the meditation to help. Maybe…
Blood pressure, BMI is ridiculous. People check out their bodies.
LinkedIn people.
Monster.com ads?
Articles of why meditation is good for you. Human resource depts.
Know your avatar – that they’re stressed and feel stuck. Maybe on statins and anti-depressants.
References to studies.
People in Texas and LA spend money on health and wellness.
You’re going to help them get the results they desire!!!
Speak their language, be the heart.
Helping people overcome their personal growth challenges.
Stress Management for Business Leaders
Today’s the Day After YesterdayAugust 15th, 2016
I did my class yesterday. I’m still in amazement that I screwed up the recording. I dropped the f-bomb in class. I’m not sure I should’ve done that. I don’t really want to be a person that curses in classes. I know it works for some people that I don’t really like it all that much even tho I do it all the time. What’s up with that. The class was SO good. I really liked the usage of hypnosis a couple of time. The first time was when I led the group thru hypnosis to instill the Buddha’s 5 main teachings that everything changes, clinging to change leads to suffering, our thoughts are not reality, all we ever really experience is the present moment, and everything is interconnected. I think that was really powerful especially since I got the opportunity to shed some light on the maligning of hypnosis by Hollywood, and possibly prove that it works if the session was good for everyone. Then, I got to use hypnosis again when Elizabeth brought that we need to create new neural pathways. I did a quick hypnosis on visualizing a well trodden path in the forest and created the desire to forge a new path because the way seemed clear in another direction and just felt right at a deep level, speaking to the learning of the subsconscious mind in a way that Richard Bandler talks about. I also merged that aware of awareness based on the GAP technique by John Stone with the labeling from mindfulness practice. I think that’s a really great bridge. Elizabeth brought up that she’s just telling her thoughts to stop. I told her that she could do that but the thing that I really wanted her to understand is that the process is to first:
- Acknowledge that you are not your thoughts or feelings.
- Notice your body and where the feelings reside.
- Use labeling on each thought and feeling.
- Focus on the space between thoughts.
You could try to just tell your thoughts and feelings to stop. But then, where are you? Can you now focus on the space between thoughts? What about the feeling of the experience in the body? Does that work better or not? And it might be individual to everyone.
Then I did the “I am that” technique which I think was really powerful because it touched on some psychological stuff when asked to be someone that they found challenging. Adriana learned a lot from it and found that she had to exercise compassion toward the person and even see things from their point of view. Jackie found that she was able to completely clear the experience that she chose to work from.
We started the class with the journey into the three minds. It was awesome. I want to recreate it. The 3 principles the emerged were:
- You are what you eat.
- You are not your thoughts.
- You are everything.
I hope I can make it as good next time. I think I want to write this out and make it really good. I know I can do that and make a great recording out of it. I talked a little about the imagination and I mentioned Bentinho Massaro’s interview where talked about imagination existing and we’re just tapping into it happening when we imagine. I may want to listen to that again actually so that I talk more about imagination before covering shamanism.
I didn’t talk about the whys of wanting to do meditation. What are the benefits. I also didn’t discuss how to practice. I just assigned homework. Maybe I’ll wait for feedback from people to discuss their challenges with practicing. Gosh, it seems like we covered such a little amount of the overall material I have! OMG!
Waiting on a CallAugust 11th, 2016
I’m just sitting here waiting to see if my coaching trio is going to pick up. It seems that two of my peeps in my other coaching trio have signed up for Christian’s programs. I’m not even sure that they’ll want to continue coaching with me. But these two; I thought what was on the calendar was on the calendar. I just don’t know. It wondered if I seemed overly negative at the conference and people didn’t want to talk to me. But they all seemed to be overly confident of something. I know I’ve been like that in places where I felt really comfortable like Quest. I never really did encapsulate all my feelings about the event. Since I started writing this, I jumped onto the call with Don and Gail and did express a couple of things. Don said that he could feel the energy of Christian’s when he did IM. I’ve spent most of my life not feeling and couldn’t feel IM. Maybe that’s where I need to focus some of my energy, into feeling things. I make the excuse that maybe I’m not meant to feel so that I can do deposession work, but I’m not sure that’s true. Sometimes I wonder if I’m not just crazy.
Chicken SongAugust 3rd, 2016
I’m in a ceremony run by a woman. She asks me to sing an elephant song. I did and I dance while I was singing. I SO wish I remembered the song. I lost it (for now). Then she asks me to sing a chicken song. In my dream memory, I know a chicken song but I can’t bring it up. I ask Chris if he knows a chicken song and he holds up a cell phone to my ear and says, “Just pretend that I’m whispering to you.” I listen to the song but it isn’t a song that I know. I’m concerned because this woman is counting on me to bring up this song. Suddenly, I realize that Chris has a small tank strapped to his back, like an oxygen tank, except it has something else in it. He puts a nasal breathing apparatus that’s connected to the tank via a hose up to my face and I start to inhale. I immediately get concerned about my ability to function if I inhale too much based on my experience with marijuana and the fact that I go “out there” pretty easily and have a hard time being functional. The anxiety of this is what wakes me up.
Brief DreamsJuly 20th, 2016
My dreams seem to be really brief. This morning I was looking for a place to move with someone and he’d recommended this woman’s house. I went there as the other tenants were moving out. She was very eclectic. Man, that 11 drops last night gave me the worst diarrhea. I need to start it again today. I might do a coffee first to try to wake me up a little so I don’t feel so woozy. All day yesterday, I just felt like crap. And where’s Jerry? He sends me a little ping on Monday to ask if I’m home and I haven’t heard from him since. No inquiry as to my whereabouts or condition. It just kinda makes me upset. I wish it didn’t. And Rich is really making me dislike that situation. I detect that he’s getting frustrated but it goes both ways. I was just thinking about all the money that I need to get together to assure that the rent is paid this month. I thought for sure I would be able to get a client. I just don’t understand why it’s been so hard. I don’t know why Gary has refused to come in for a session. I just realized that I haven’t heard from whats-her-name down in LA. I should email her if I could remember her name. Wow, I’m getting the worst throbbing in my thumb right now.
So, here I am writing but it’s not writing much of anything. Just random journal thoughts. I wonder if this is really considered writing. I’ve gotten two of the classes completed and the compassing recording. I’d really like to write that sucker up. I also have things to do to get ready for Practicum. I have to check and then get fabric for prayer ties. I have to… gosh I really want to go to sundance. I really like sitting at the drum and singing and I only got to do it twice this year. I would SO go up to Rosebud if I could. I would really like to be on the Res for a dance. I’m just thinking of sitting at the drum with native singers and being included into that. I’m thinking of Mike Daily’s story about being in New York and all the songs he brought up that those guys didn’t want to sing and the only one they did wanted to was the ganja ninja song. I think that’s funny. You know, I sit here and write and don’t seem to ever feel like anything useful pops into my head, just ramblings. I wonder when something profound comes thru? I would like something profound to come out of my brain right now. I’m needing to go back to my todo list. I need to check the clothing and make sure there’s rain stuff in there. We need some food so I need to check the food list. I need to get the throat spray from Whole Foods which I’ll do today. I need to check the rest of the list. Check the power steering fluid. Some other stuff. Okay, that’s 500 words of nothing.
