I just got that title from the fact that I don’t want to do career coaching. When I look at what people are wanting, I don’t mind doing that but I don’t want to think I need to build up a skill set specific to that. It’s not what I wanna do.I’m asking spirit to come thru now and help me clarify what I wanna dooo now. Please come, Therelin and any other spirits who are as great as self or greater and want to help me with my vision and what to do on planet earth now.
Help people get to their soul’s essense. Find the essense that they’re vibrating at at the soul level b that’s been hidden by being human. Help remove and transform limiting bliefs and unfulfilled emotional states that are hiding that esssense so that people can live by it.
How do I do that?
Get it out of the way.
I need to speak about peace and calm. I’m trying to open up to information coming thru. I’ve never been able to hear spirit speak directly to me and I’d really like that to happen, to channel clearly. Spirit, can I please make that happen? What do I need to do? I really want to do that. Let’s make the channel clearer. Maybe I need to try automatic writing instead of automatic typing.
Not What I Wanna DoAugust 30th, 2016
The Whole Christian Mickelsen ThingAugust 22nd, 2016
I’m having a bit of challenge around deciding whether to ask for my money back. There are some things that have been useful like the structure around your first session with a client (FSTS) and the Rapid Coaching System (RCS). I’ve have used the FSTS format partially for my first conversation with a client, but 90% have been clients that were already going to hire me. I wasn’t doing a free session offer. The one person that I did the free session offer for didn’t take my services, she chose someone else. The RCS has been used a couple of time, but really I haven’t needed to because I already know what to do with my clients when they come to me for healing. I’m mostly work on the inner psychology and blockages which is why they came to me in the first place. I didn’t get any value out of the Client Attraction and Money Making Mastery (CAMMM) because I still don’t have a flood of clients coming in even though I’ve read about and implemented those tools before I even went thru the CAMMM system. I find Christian to be somewhat disingenuous tho I can’t put my finger on why. Well, it may be partly that he had three different opportunities to use his miracle stuff on me, and I believe he chose not to because he wanted me to pay for and come to the Instant Miracle Mastery (IMM) program. He even told me that while I was at IMX after he muscle tested me and found that he might be able to help me with my HIV. If it were me, I would’ve jumped at the chance to help someone cure a disease, not ask for money around it. I guess I’m kind of answering myself. The program hasn’t worked for me. What has were the two coaching trios. My first coaching with Christian’s group was horrible. She basically told me that she’d help me if I signed up for a coaching program. That was lame, especially since I told her about the specific thing I wanted help with. The second session was with Carla. She was much better and went over for me, but I still didn’t get anything out of the session. I took a few notes from that session that I need to go over. Here they are:
• I need to be able to generate more leads online.
• Narrowing my niche has been really challenging. Os to stress management?
• My self confidence gets in the way. I come off as confident and assured but I’m so tired of it bouncing around back and forth, especially with clients that I sometimes can help and other times I can’t. I’m starting to feel like this whole shamanic path doesn’t really work. The spirits aren’t really listening. We’ve created a grand delusion. Even tho I’ve seen the evidence to the contrary. Sometimes I’m successful and sometimes I’m not. I can’t build a thriving practice if I have such a low success rate. Although doctors don’t necessarily have a high success rate with cancer. FUCK
• I really, at my core, love the study of the occult, the unseen, consciousness. I love helping people going really deep with this stuff.
• I’m not getting people to come in for FREE sessions.
How stressed are you today?
Ask people/invite them phrasing in the right way. They get a lot out of your fsts.
Blind leads are $297 for the session.
Other FB groups. Paying attention to who needs your skills and talking to them.
Instagram page for stress management + ads.
Speak to HR about employee productivity and stress reduction. I offer both.
Lunch & learns. Ask if they’d done meditation classes.
Google the industry standards.
Class: teach different styles of meditation like LSL.
Addicted to ibuprofen, drinking. Why they’re doing what they’re doing to cope.
What is the meditation to help. Maybe…
Blood pressure, BMI is ridiculous. People check out their bodies.
LinkedIn people.
Monster.com ads?
Articles of why meditation is good for you. Human resource depts.
Know your avatar – that they’re stressed and feel stuck. Maybe on statins and anti-depressants.
References to studies.
People in Texas and LA spend money on health and wellness.
You’re going to help them get the results they desire!!!
Speak their language, be the heart.
Helping people overcome their personal growth challenges.
Stress Management for Business Leaders
Today’s the Day After YesterdayAugust 15th, 2016
I did my class yesterday. I’m still in amazement that I screwed up the recording. I dropped the f-bomb in class. I’m not sure I should’ve done that. I don’t really want to be a person that curses in classes. I know it works for some people that I don’t really like it all that much even tho I do it all the time. What’s up with that. The class was SO good. I really liked the usage of hypnosis a couple of time. The first time was when I led the group thru hypnosis to instill the Buddha’s 5 main teachings that everything changes, clinging to change leads to suffering, our thoughts are not reality, all we ever really experience is the present moment, and everything is interconnected. I think that was really powerful especially since I got the opportunity to shed some light on the maligning of hypnosis by Hollywood, and possibly prove that it works if the session was good for everyone. Then, I got to use hypnosis again when Elizabeth brought that we need to create new neural pathways. I did a quick hypnosis on visualizing a well trodden path in the forest and created the desire to forge a new path because the way seemed clear in another direction and just felt right at a deep level, speaking to the learning of the subsconscious mind in a way that Richard Bandler talks about. I also merged that aware of awareness based on the GAP technique by John Stone with the labeling from mindfulness practice. I think that’s a really great bridge. Elizabeth brought up that she’s just telling her thoughts to stop. I told her that she could do that but the thing that I really wanted her to understand is that the process is to first:
- Acknowledge that you are not your thoughts or feelings.
- Notice your body and where the feelings reside.
- Use labeling on each thought and feeling.
- Focus on the space between thoughts.
You could try to just tell your thoughts and feelings to stop. But then, where are you? Can you now focus on the space between thoughts? What about the feeling of the experience in the body? Does that work better or not? And it might be individual to everyone.
Then I did the “I am that” technique which I think was really powerful because it touched on some psychological stuff when asked to be someone that they found challenging. Adriana learned a lot from it and found that she had to exercise compassion toward the person and even see things from their point of view. Jackie found that she was able to completely clear the experience that she chose to work from.
We started the class with the journey into the three minds. It was awesome. I want to recreate it. The 3 principles the emerged were:
- You are what you eat.
- You are not your thoughts.
- You are everything.
I hope I can make it as good next time. I think I want to write this out and make it really good. I know I can do that and make a great recording out of it. I talked a little about the imagination and I mentioned Bentinho Massaro’s interview where talked about imagination existing and we’re just tapping into it happening when we imagine. I may want to listen to that again actually so that I talk more about imagination before covering shamanism.
I didn’t talk about the whys of wanting to do meditation. What are the benefits. I also didn’t discuss how to practice. I just assigned homework. Maybe I’ll wait for feedback from people to discuss their challenges with practicing. Gosh, it seems like we covered such a little amount of the overall material I have! OMG!
Waiting on a CallAugust 11th, 2016
I’m just sitting here waiting to see if my coaching trio is going to pick up. It seems that two of my peeps in my other coaching trio have signed up for Christian’s programs. I’m not even sure that they’ll want to continue coaching with me. But these two; I thought what was on the calendar was on the calendar. I just don’t know. It wondered if I seemed overly negative at the conference and people didn’t want to talk to me. But they all seemed to be overly confident of something. I know I’ve been like that in places where I felt really comfortable like Quest. I never really did encapsulate all my feelings about the event. Since I started writing this, I jumped onto the call with Don and Gail and did express a couple of things. Don said that he could feel the energy of Christian’s when he did IM. I’ve spent most of my life not feeling and couldn’t feel IM. Maybe that’s where I need to focus some of my energy, into feeling things. I make the excuse that maybe I’m not meant to feel so that I can do deposession work, but I’m not sure that’s true. Sometimes I wonder if I’m not just crazy.
Chicken SongAugust 3rd, 2016
I’m in a ceremony run by a woman. She asks me to sing an elephant song. I did and I dance while I was singing. I SO wish I remembered the song. I lost it (for now). Then she asks me to sing a chicken song. In my dream memory, I know a chicken song but I can’t bring it up. I ask Chris if he knows a chicken song and he holds up a cell phone to my ear and says, “Just pretend that I’m whispering to you.” I listen to the song but it isn’t a song that I know. I’m concerned because this woman is counting on me to bring up this song. Suddenly, I realize that Chris has a small tank strapped to his back, like an oxygen tank, except it has something else in it. He puts a nasal breathing apparatus that’s connected to the tank via a hose up to my face and I start to inhale. I immediately get concerned about my ability to function if I inhale too much based on my experience with marijuana and the fact that I go “out there” pretty easily and have a hard time being functional. The anxiety of this is what wakes me up.
Brief DreamsJuly 20th, 2016
My dreams seem to be really brief. This morning I was looking for a place to move with someone and he’d recommended this woman’s house. I went there as the other tenants were moving out. She was very eclectic. Man, that 11 drops last night gave me the worst diarrhea. I need to start it again today. I might do a coffee first to try to wake me up a little so I don’t feel so woozy. All day yesterday, I just felt like crap. And where’s Jerry? He sends me a little ping on Monday to ask if I’m home and I haven’t heard from him since. No inquiry as to my whereabouts or condition. It just kinda makes me upset. I wish it didn’t. And Rich is really making me dislike that situation. I detect that he’s getting frustrated but it goes both ways. I was just thinking about all the money that I need to get together to assure that the rent is paid this month. I thought for sure I would be able to get a client. I just don’t understand why it’s been so hard. I don’t know why Gary has refused to come in for a session. I just realized that I haven’t heard from whats-her-name down in LA. I should email her if I could remember her name. Wow, I’m getting the worst throbbing in my thumb right now.
So, here I am writing but it’s not writing much of anything. Just random journal thoughts. I wonder if this is really considered writing. I’ve gotten two of the classes completed and the compassing recording. I’d really like to write that sucker up. I also have things to do to get ready for Practicum. I have to check and then get fabric for prayer ties. I have to… gosh I really want to go to sundance. I really like sitting at the drum and singing and I only got to do it twice this year. I would SO go up to Rosebud if I could. I would really like to be on the Res for a dance. I’m just thinking of sitting at the drum with native singers and being included into that. I’m thinking of Mike Daily’s story about being in New York and all the songs he brought up that those guys didn’t want to sing and the only one they did wanted to was the ganja ninja song. I think that’s funny. You know, I sit here and write and don’t seem to ever feel like anything useful pops into my head, just ramblings. I wonder when something profound comes thru? I would like something profound to come out of my brain right now. I’m needing to go back to my todo list. I need to check the clothing and make sure there’s rain stuff in there. We need some food so I need to check the food list. I need to get the throat spray from Whole Foods which I’ll do today. I need to check the rest of the list. Check the power steering fluid. Some other stuff. Okay, that’s 500 words of nothing.
Hard BlowJuly 16th, 2016
I finally got my viral load today and it’s gone up to 22k. I’m really bummed. I was SO hoping that it would’ve gone down below the last 10k mark, especially with the dance and prayers and my staying really close to the protocol. There’s really a large disappointment. Actually I’m going to work on that disappointment right now… well, I’ll continue writing… coffee?… sit with it, identify it in the body… I feel it in my heart… It’s read and black, I feel that failure that came up in my session with Nicola, and I feel sad. Now it’s green, slimy, I feel it in my face, It reminds me of watching my dog die, I’m sending it love, I’m making the dog a hero for dying in the line of duty protecting me and our homse… Now I’m filling my self with love. I have a pain in the back of my head, C1 on the right. It feels like the disappoinment around the HIV results is gone or diminished. How do I feel about it now? I’m ready to do TWiNN now I guess. Ok, I did it. I feel really tired now. I don’t really want to write all the much. Coffee?… I keep making coffee but damn, I feel tired. Might go meditate too. That sounds good. Just feeling sleepy. I shouldn’t have gone to be so late last night but I really enjoyed hanging out with Bruce. I can’t believe how late we went. Oh man… I’m just a crazy person. I do keep feeling like I need to rewrite my class notes for LSL. I have people registering for the class. They’re giving me money and they’re registering. It’s happening. I have emails I need to respond to. Kay Wong, Tina, Elizabeth… they want to write and I want to write them back. I want people to give me money. I want to improve my healing skills and so much of what I’m doing is working on business skills. Ugh. I am improving my healing skills and my business skills at the same time. I’m am curing my HIV right now as I type this. All of the stuff I’ve been trying is healing my HIV. The rise in VL is because it’s putting up a final fight but by the time I finish with these protocols, HIV will be gone!
Bakin’July 14th, 2016
Went outside and meditated. Hummingbird hung out in the air in front of my for quite a time. I need to go spend time with my mandala which I’ll do, but… today is the day that I get my blood drawn. I was going to wake up early to go to Esteban’s hypnosis talk but I woke up too late to get that and my blood drawn and the blood draw is really important and I can’t do it tomorrow. So… I have and abundance of high paying return clients. I have an abundance of high paying return clients. I have an abundance of high paying return clients. I have an abundance of high paying return clients. I have an abundance of return high paying clients. I have an abundance of return high paying clients. I have an abundance of return high paying clients. I have an abundance of return high paying clients. I have an abundance of return high paying clients. I have an abundance of return high paying clients. I have an abundance of return high paying clients. My business is thriving. I’ve released my book and it’s doing exceptionally well. My classes are full and I really enjoy teaching and bringing techniques of mastery to people. My own spiritual awakening is allowing me to astral project when I need to for clients. I own ability to pierce the veil is extraordinary. I feel great!
HIV GoneJuly 12th, 2016
This is what I’m thinking about this morning as I make the drink. I’m two days away from my third 3-week regimen. I’m very excited to see awesome results in my labs. I’ll look at the schedule but I probably don’t need to wait until Thursday to actually do the labs. On another note, I released the web site and announced the new Facebook page at about 2:30 this morning. I was hoping to see gaggle of emails this morning asking me for free sessions but I’m willing to wait until noon today! I really need to get some free sessions out there. I thought by now that I’d have some inquiries but it seems to be taking its sweet time. I probably need to hit Yelp as well. It also makes me think of why Dorthy hasn’t gotten back to me about working on her web site. I sent her a text message and then I sent her an email and she hasn’t responded to either. I know she’s busy. She’s such an awesome woman. It might be my imagination but I wonder who’s going to take over that school when she’s ready to give it up. I wonder what’s going to happen to our drum when they’re ready to give it up. I wonder, I wonder… I woke up with morning thinking about all the things I need to do to my web site. I definitely need to fix the layout issue with mobile. That’s a priority. The site is really plain. I didn’t do any bell and whistles on the site because I wanted it to feel incredibly clean. I like Peleg Top’s site so much and how clean it is. I wonder if I’ve done enough. I sure would like someone to read my copy and tell me what they think about it. I’m really hoping that I’ll get some feedback on it. It was interesting talking to Teri yesterday. I’m glad that the session went so well with her. I hope it makes a big difference in her life. I just wonder where the whole Moxie thing is going. It seems to have great potential. I’d like to have that environment and busy opportunity here around home. I really don’t like that fucked up drive over there so it doesn’t make me want to do that more than one day a week. I love the Monday night gig. I don’t want to give that up by any stretch of the imagination. I wonder when I’m going to figure out how to write something that seems worthy enough of a Facebook post. I’d like to develop some skill or strategy for posting to Facebook. I’m not really crazy about that whole thing and I go back and forth, but I really need to do more writing for my web site. I need to look up Dragon Dictate. Hell, I think I’ll do that right now. I’m also noticing that the work count doesn’t update all that much.
Occult StuffJuly 11th, 2016
I’m reading Dion Fortune right now and having this issue with Nelson. It seems like he wants a different practitioner, one who “sees” the beings he’s experiencing. We did one really long session and maybe he wants someone more powerful. After reading Dion Fortune, it sounds like there are people who can move in and out of the astral realm. I don’t know why I have so much trouble with it. I also wonder if I can actually be good at this kind of work if I can’t “see.” Dammit. I’ve tried so hard to do this work from a place of love and light. Maybe the two don’t mix. I think back to those that say that the astral realm isn’t someplace you should stop in and hang out, that you should move further into the mental and causal realms. I don’t even know if I do that. I do something. I just don’t “see.” I wanted to help Nelson in the same way that I want to help David Neuman. I did that soul retrieval for him but I don’t know that it helped him. I don’t know what it’s like to have a being constantly pestering you. At least I don’t think so. Maybe I do. Maybe that’s what’s going on with my sexuality. I wish that my spirit guides would help me to understand and figure this stuff out. It’s really getting to me. If I’m going to be shamanic practitioner, I need to improve my game in some way. Oh, all of this just seems so damned complicated. I need to connect with Therelin. I’m not convinced that I need to do automatic writing with a pen. It’s just too slow. Automatic typing. That’s where it’s at. If Nelson can do this, what makes him different than me? Is it true that I am not that sensitive because it gives me the ability to work with people like Nelson? Is my protection enough to keep me safe? I think so. Please Therelin, tell me how to proceed. Fucking leaf blowers. Ok, they’re done. I just tried to meditate. I realized that I’m very irritated now that I can’t get my mind to shut the fuck up, I can’t astral project, and I’m not getting anywhere in meditation… and here I am trying to reposition myself as a coach and I’m feeling pretty whack. Ugh. I hope this passes soon. I think I’m really tired too.
